Saturday, June 25, 2011

30 Day Challenge. Day 12. Bullet your whole day.

Saturday June 25th.

12:00-2:00 am.; Was at a cookout at Janel Crib that turned into to drinks and grown folks talk. (FYI the kid did all the grilling earlier that night. Chef Vince).
2:30 am: Made it home and laid it down.
2:30- 9:30 am: ZZZZZZZ
9:30: Wake up, and got prepared for the day.
9:45-10 am: Drove to Providence Day High School (Go Chargers)
10am-2pm: Ran the Gym for my dads AAU basketball tournament, which consisted of everything from making sure all the teams knew what time they played to making sure the parents didn't tear each others heads off.
2pm-3pm: Lunch w/ a friend.
3pm-4pm: Home and get changed for the afternoon.
4pm-10pm: My homeboy Kevin's send off party. He just graduated from the Naval Academy and heading out to San Diego next week. Good time out there with old friends and good people.
10pm-Now: Home changing for the night out with Kev and some the fella's.

That was my Saturday.

30 Day Challenge. Day 11. First 10 songs that play on your Ipod.......

When I took my ipod out of my particular playlists I was suprised with everything I had in there, here we go;

1.) Beautiful Bliss. - Wale ft. J.Cole
2.) You Give me Something. - James Morrison
3.) Take one for the Team. - Kanye West ft. Pusha T, Cyhi the Prynce, and Keri Hilson
4.) Play Your Part. - Rick Ross ft. Wale
5.) Take you off the Market. - Phill Wade
6.) Sunday Morning. - Maroon 5
7.) To Deep for the Intro. - J. Cole
8.) Mesmorized. - Wiz Khalifa
9.) American Dreamin. - B.o.B.
10.) Be Here. -Raphael Saadiq

Thursday, June 23, 2011

30 Day Challenge. Day 10 Discuss your first love.....

As far as my first love that is fairly simple. I won’t call names out of respect and privacy, I’ll just use “26” as a place holder. I will never forget when I first saw her. It was in Granville Towers in summer of ’06 (She had on a jean mini skirt and the most tantalizing pair of wedges). The crazy thing is that she wasn’t even there to see me. She had come to see one of my teammates. Yes I was HOT. I didn’t do anything ‘shysty’, I just let it run its course. I know this was not the most stable of beginnings but it was a beginning and that was enough for me. When I finally got my shot it was the 4th of July. Coincidently we both wore the same shoes, all white Jordan IV’s (the last pair of J’s I ever saw her in) and we went to cold stone (Yep, she was the FIRST Cold stone date). We ended up missing the fireworks but we stayed in Granville parking lot for what had to be hours just talking about nothing and everything. That was my chance, and I probably did a horrible job but for some reason she kept me around. We continued to talk through the summer and into training camp. I was so excited when training camp came around, and she was coming to visit ME. Even though we just chilled outside the dorm making small talk, I don’t think she realized how much that meant at the time. Anybody who has been through a college training camp knows how much a visitor from the outside world can better your day. Once school started we had to go through that transition stage of getting used to being in college. I guess after a couple weeks of being on campus she realized there wasn’t another “Big” Vince walking around so she finally gave in, lol. It wasn’t until September 17 that I made it official (it was really the 16th but I didn’t want our anniversary to be on my bday, lol, selfish). I think we had the average freshman year, childish relationship. I think Chapter 1 of the Vince & 26 saga lasted until about the beginning of December. I’m going to try to keep this entry positive so I will leave the reasons for the breaks-ups private. We finally reconciled sometime in late February and Chapter 2 began. My memory is a little fuzzy from about February freshman year until about thanksgiving of junior year, lol. All I know is there were a lot of separate chapters during that span but a lot of emotional attachment gained as well. I remember when I stepped off the ledge and finally said the “L” word. Of course the response I received was “that’s nice” or something of the sort, lol. I may have been a little premature with my statement but there was no doubt about how I felt. Eventually that feeling was mutual, and no matter what, there was always this belief that whatever the drama it would get worked out one way or another.
I remember when I was in a relationship with 26, I would always tell my boys “that if she isn’t the one, she’s the prototype”. Today I still think that but in a totally different way then what I meant initially. When I said it back then I meant it as literal as possible. If I couldn’t have her, I wanted somebody who possessed everything she did. That feeling has changed a little bit. Not to take anything from her, she is a great person, and I have a ton of respect for her, but when I say she is the prototype now, I mean the love I had for her is my prototype. I had the most unconditional love for 26. I don’t know where it came from, or if it was even deserved but it was a good feeling to know that I could love like that. No matter how upset I was or whatever, at the end of the day, I loved the heck out of this person. Even though she may no longer be the prototypical person, she is the prototypical love. The love that I gave is the prototype that feeling is the prototype. That can’t be faked. I’m happy to have been able to go through that, and I’m sure now that I know what it feels like to unconditionally love someone & what it feels like to be in love, that feeling is the prototype.
Just a thought.

30 Day Challenge. Day 9. What you want you future to be like.

What you want your future to be like.
I feel like I have already written this one on Day 2. I guess I will take a different take on it this time. I know when most people our age start thinking about their future; it’s all about their career. When I was in undergrad, I was the same way, not really because I feared not attaining my goal, but because I didn’t really have a clear goal. Now that I have a clear goal, I’m sure that continued hard work will get me there and my career will take care of itself. Now when I think about my future I think about my family. I guess the reason I think about that is because once again I don’t have a clear goal. I’ve been into goal setting since my youth and once I have a goal, I remove the worry, I just work towards it and things will fall in place as they may.
As far as thinking about my future and the future of my family  is a troubling thought. In terms of my family, I mean all aspects of it, my current family and my future family. I hope in my future I’m a lot more connected with my blood family. I hope that we can all be there to support each other and keep the family in good working order once some of the elders have passed on. I hope in my future my parents have a healthy and satisfying golden years. I hope they can get over their differences so they can be there to collectively support my sister and I. I hope my sister and I continue to support each other and work towards our individual goals. I just hope in the future I continue on the Jacobs legacy and take a step forward not a step back.
The future family that I’m most worried or uncertain of is my future immediate family (wife and children).  It’s just so uncertain to me. I have no idea who that woman will be. I have no idea what kind of children we will produce. That uncertainty is worrisome. It’s scary because of the lack of control I have over the situation. I have no control over what woman I will fall in love with. I have no control over what kind of children god blesses me with. I just have hopes. I know what kind of marriage I want to be a part of, I know what kind of parent I want to be, but the canvas of that portrait is so blank right now. I’m sure in the next few years pieces of the puzzle will start to fall in place but a good family life is what I hope my future will include.
Just a thought.

Wednesday, June 22, 2011

30 Day Challenge. Day 7. A moment when you felt most satisfied w/ your life.

A time when you where most satisfied with your life.
I know this may be a very cliché answer, but honestly right now is the happiest I have been with my life. I have had some great moments in this short life of mine so far. I have achieved a lot and experienced a lot. I’m proud of all of those moments and experiences and all of them have brought me different kind of joys. The thing that makes me the happiest though, is the trials that I’ve been through. I know during the trials were not the happiest moments but the results of the trials is what makes me the happiest today. I’m kind of using happiest and proudest interchangeably because that is the feelingI get when I think about what I’ve been through. I’m not one to claim that I’ve had the hardest life. The things that I have been through though,  I have handled with courage and persevered and the current result of that is me, today. That is why today is when I’m at my happiest/proudest. It’s because of the culmination of those events and the person that it has created. The athletic scholarships, and professional school acceptances didn’t make me. It was the failures and disappointments that created the Vince that you see today. I’m proud of this Vince, I’m “happy” with this Vince, and that is why today is when I’m happiest w/ my life.
Just a thought

Tuesday, June 21, 2011

30 Day Challenge Day 7. Your Zodiac sign and do you think it fits your personality.

First I want to apologize for slacking. I had to let @tcoop32 catch up with his blog (at least that's the excuse I'm going to use). If you want to check it out it's Tcoop's Blog.


Well quite honestly I had to do a quick google on the subject today. Going into today I had no idea what Zodiac sign I was. I had even less of an idea about what that Zodiac sign means. Quite honestly even after the google search my care level did not rise that much. To inform all of you, I am a Virgo (big ups to all the Virgo's). I found out today that my love match is a Pisces ( I always knew me and Rhi Rhi were meant to be, lol). In all seriousness I think this whole Zodiac sign thing is a bunch of crap but I will play along to appease the blog. Google says that; "The Virgo personality is a complex mix of intelligence, common sense, attention to detail, and commitment.  This is a down-to-earth sign with a strong sense of responsibility, especially with regard to family and close friends." I think it's a broad all encompassing definition but for the most part, does pretty decent job of describing Mr. Jacobs.
Intelligent-Check
Common Sense -  Check
Attention to Detail - ummm kinda
Commitment (family and close friends) - double check.
I don't really  know where to go with this blog. It's late, I'm tired of yal complaining about me not keeping up with the days so here yah go. I will refocus tomorrow. There are some better topics coming up so I will go in on those more in depth. Have a good one people.

Just a thought.