30 Day Challenge. Day 12. Bullet your whole day.

Saturday June 25th.

12:00-2:00 am.; Was at a cookout at Janel Crib that turned into to drinks and grown folks talk. (FYI the kid did all the grilling earlier that night. Chef Vince).
2:30 am: Made it home and laid it down.
2:30- 9:30 am: ZZZZZZZ
9:30: Wake up, and got prepared for the day.
9:45-10 am: Drove to Providence Day High School (Go Chargers)
10am-2pm: Ran the Gym for my dads AAU basketball tournament, which consisted of everything from making sure all the teams knew what time they played to making sure the parents didn't tear each others heads off.
2pm-3pm: Lunch w/ a friend.
3pm-4pm: Home and get changed for the afternoon.
4pm-10pm: My homeboy Kevin's send off party. He just graduated from the Naval Academy and heading out to San Diego next week. Good time out there with old friends and good people.
10pm-Now: Home changing for the night out with Kev and some the fella's.

That was my Saturday.

30 Day Challenge. Day 11. First 10 songs that play on your Ipod.......

When I took my ipod out of my particular playlists I was suprised with everything I had in there, here we go;

1.) Beautiful Bliss. - Wale ft. J.Cole
2.) You Give me Something. - James Morrison
3.) Take one for the Team. - Kanye West ft. Pusha T, Cyhi the Prynce, and Keri Hilson
4.) Play Your Part. - Rick Ross ft. Wale
5.) Take you off the Market. - Phill Wade
6.) Sunday Morning. - Maroon 5
7.) To Deep for the Intro. - J. Cole
8.) Mesmorized. - Wiz Khalifa
9.) American Dreamin. - B.o.B.
10.) Be Here. -Raphael Saadiq

30 Day Challenge. Day 10 Discuss your first love.....

As far as my first love that is fairly simple. I won’t call names out of respect and privacy, I’ll just use “26” as a place holder. I will never forget when I first saw her. It was in Granville Towers in summer of ’06 (She had on a jean mini skirt and the most tantalizing pair of wedges). The crazy thing is that she wasn’t even there to see me. She had come to see one of my teammates. Yes I was HOT. I didn’t do anything ‘shysty’, I just let it run its course. I know this was not the most stable of beginnings but it was a beginning and that was enough for me. When I finally got my shot it was the 4^th of July. Coincidently we both wore the same shoes, all white Jordan IV’s (the last pair of J’s I ever saw her in) and we went to cold stone (Yep, she was the FIRST Cold stone date). We ended up missing the fireworks but we stayed in Granville parking lot for what had to be hours just talking about nothing and everything. That was my chance, and I probably did a horrible job but for some reason she kept me around. We continued to talk through the summer and into training camp. I was so excited when training camp came around, and she was coming to visit ME. Even though we just chilled outside the dorm making small talk, I don’t think she realized how much that meant at the time. Anybody who has been through a college training camp knows how much a visitor from the outside world can better your day. Once school started we had to go through that transition stage of getting used to being in college. I guess after a couple weeks of being on campus she realized there wasn’t another “Big” Vince walking around so she finally gave in, lol. It wasn’t until September 17 that I made it official (it was really the 16^th but I didn’t want our anniversary to be on my bday, lol, selfish). I think we had the average freshman year, childish relationship. I think Chapter 1 of the Vince & 26 saga lasted until about the beginning of December. I’m going to try to keep this entry positive so I will leave the reasons for the breaks-ups private. We finally reconciled sometime in late February and Chapter 2 began. My memory is a little fuzzy from about February freshman year until about thanksgiving of junior year, lol. All I know is there were a lot of separate chapters during that span but a lot of emotional attachment gained as well. I remember when I stepped off the ledge and finally said the “L” word. Of course the response I received was “that’s nice” or something of the sort, lol. I may have been a little premature with my statement but there was no doubt about how I felt. Eventually that feeling was mutual, and no matter what, there was always this belief that whatever the drama it would get worked out one way or another.

I remember when I was in a relationship with 26, I would always tell my boys “that if she isn’t the one, she’s the prototype”. Today I still think that but in a totally different way then what I meant initially. When I said it back then I meant it as literal as possible. If I couldn’t have her, I wanted somebody who possessed everything she did. That feeling has changed a little bit. Not to take anything from her, she is a great person, and I have a ton of respect for her, but when I say she is the prototype now, I mean the love I had for her is my prototype. I had the most unconditional love for 26. I don’t know where it came from, or if it was even deserved but it was a good feeling to know that I could love like that. No matter how upset I was or whatever, at the end of the day, I loved the heck out of this person. Even though she may no longer be the prototypical person, she is the prototypical love. The love that I gave is the prototype that feeling is the prototype. That can’t be faked. I’m happy to have been able to go through that, and I’m sure now that I know what it feels like to unconditionally love someone & what it feels like to be in love, that feeling is the prototype.

Just a thought.

30 Day Challenge. Day 9. What you want you future to be like.

What you want your future to be like.

I feel like I have already written this one on Day 2. I guess I will take a different take on it this time. I know when most people our age start thinking about their future; it’s all about their career. When I was in undergrad, I was the same way, not really because I feared not attaining my goal, but because I didn’t really have a clear goal. Now that I have a clear goal, I’m sure that continued hard work will get me there and my career will take care of itself. Now when I think about my future I think about my family. I guess the reason I think about that is because once again I don’t have a clear goal. I’ve been into goal setting since my youth and once I have a goal, I remove the worry, I just work towards it and things will fall in place as they may.

As far as thinking about my future and the future of my family  is a troubling thought. In terms of my family, I mean all aspects of it, my current family and my future family. I hope in my future I’m a lot more connected with my blood family. I hope that we can all be there to support each other and keep the family in good working order once some of the elders have passed on. I hope in my future my parents have a healthy and satisfying golden years. I hope they can get over their differences so they can be there to collectively support my sister and I. I hope my sister and I continue to support each other and work towards our individual goals. I just hope in the future I continue on the Jacobs legacy and take a step forward not a step back.

The future family that I’m most worried or uncertain of is my future immediate family (wife and children).  It’s just so uncertain to me. I have no idea who that woman will be. I have no idea what kind of children we will produce. That uncertainty is worrisome. It’s scary because of the lack of control I have over the situation. I have no control over what woman I will fall in love with. I have no control over what kind of children god blesses me with. I just have hopes. I know what kind of marriage I want to be a part of, I know what kind of parent I want to be, but the canvas of that portrait is so blank right now. I’m sure in the next few years pieces of the puzzle will start to fall in place but a good family life is what I hope my future will include.

Just a thought.

30 Day Challenge. Day 7. A moment when you felt most satisfied w/ your life.

A time when you where most satisfied with your life.

I know this may be a very cliché answer, but honestly right now is the happiest I have been with my life. I have had some great moments in this short life of mine so far. I have achieved a lot and experienced a lot. I’m proud of all of those moments and experiences and all of them have brought me different kind of joys. The thing that makes me the happiest though, is the trials that I’ve been through. I know during the trials were not the happiest moments but the results of the trials is what makes me the happiest today. I’m kind of using happiest and proudest interchangeably because that is the feelingI get when I think about what I’ve been through. I’m not one to claim that I’ve had the hardest life. The things that I have been through though,  I have handled with courage and persevered and the current result of that is me, today. That is why today is when I’m at my happiest/proudest. It’s because of the culmination of those events and the person that it has created. The athletic scholarships, and professional school acceptances didn’t make me. It was the failures and disappointments that created the Vince that you see today. I’m proud of this Vince, I’m “happy” with this Vince, and that is why today is when I’m happiest w/ my life.

Just a thought

30 Day Challenge Day 7. Your Zodiac sign and do you think it fits your personality.

First I want to apologize for slacking. I had to let @tcoop32 catch up with his blog (at least that's the excuse I'm going to use). If you want to check it out it's Tcoop's Blog.


Well quite honestly I had to do a quick google on the subject today. Going into today I had no idea what Zodiac sign I was. I had even less of an idea about what that Zodiac sign means. Quite honestly even after the google search my care level did not rise that much. To inform all of you, I am a Virgo (big ups to all the Virgo's). I found out today that my love match is a Pisces ( I always knew me and Rhi Rhi were meant to be, lol). In all seriousness I think this whole Zodiac sign thing is a bunch of crap but I will play along to appease the blog. Google says that; "The Virgo personality is a complex mix of intelligence, common sense, attention to detail, and commitment.  This is a down-to-earth sign with a strong sense of responsibility, especially with regard to family and close friends." I think it's a broad all encompassing definition but for the most part, does pretty decent job of describing Mr. Jacobs.
Intelligent-Check
Common Sense -  Check
Attention to Detail - ummm kinda
Commitment (family and close friends) - double check.
I don't really  know where to go with this blog. It's late, I'm tired of yal complaining about me not keeping up with the days so here yah go. I will refocus tomorrow. There are some better topics coming up so I will go in on those more in depth. Have a good one people.

Just a thought.

30 Day Challenge-Day 6. 30 interesting facts about me.

1)      I’m allergic to fish ( I think)

2)      My childhood dream was to be a commercial pilot.

3)      I really want to be chubby at some point in my life.

4)      My personal hygiene could be a lot better.

5)      I’m a brand slave.

6)      There are a lot of rules I just don’t think apply to me, and that I think are extremely stupid.

7)      I enjoyed playing basketball a lot more than football.

8)      My favorite porn star is Naomi Russel

9)      I have no idea how many women I have had sex with in my life.

10)   I’m extremely proud of both of my parents. They are my inspiration.

11)   My favorite show is the fresh prince of bel air.

12)   I think I’m a hell of a friend.

13)   I don’t drive that well when people are in the car w/ me.

14)   I think I have a foot fetish.

15)   I always wanted to play an instrument. Saxophone was my instrument of choice.

16)   I really enjoy being awkwardly tall.

17)   I am extremely lazy. Like it’s a problem.

18)   I have a color complex

19)   Morally, I’m not where I need to be in my life.

20)   Even though I’m admittedly not shit right now, I truly think I’m gonna be a good husband one day

21)   Kanye West is my favorite artist and maybe one of my favorite human beings.

22)   I’m scared to smoke weed.

23)   I’m proud of myself.

24)   I wish my head wasn't so long

25)   I could watch YouTube for hours. (like literally hours)

26)   I really wish I could sing

27)   One of my life goals is to be more successful than my father.

28)   Power is more important than money in my career aspirations

29)   My least favorite body part is my left arm. It’s so little & scrimpy compared to my right arm. I don’t know if my tattoo stunted its growth or what.

30)   I really like sitcoms, like old corny ones like Seinfeld and Frasier.

30 Day Challenge, Day 5. A time you thought about ending your own life.

I want to give this question a really short answer. NEVER. Quite honestly my life thus far has been pretty smooth sailing. Of course there have been bumps along the road and disappointments but nothing to the extinct of wanting to harm myself. I want to make it clear that I’m not judging anyone who has contemplated it, or has even gone through with harming themselves. I understand people handle stress and their problems differently.

I feel like stuff like this occurs mainly during your high school and college years. I don’t remember an inordinate amount of stress during high school and so far in college and post grad (which could be problem.) Back in high school my biggest stress was between seeing what I was ranked in the nation that week and hoping Footaction had my size in the newest J’s. I didn’t really have a lot the normal high school stresses. I didn’t have a particular high school sweet heart to really stress over. I mean I had a girl for little period of time, but there wasn’t really any drama or a tough break up to stress out about. I never really got particularly stressed over academics in high school (as I write this, it makes me think did I care about anything in high school).  My mom made sure I had an academic standard, and my own competiveness kept my grades above par. I had my first athletic scholarship offer the summer going into my junior year, so I realized what my ticket was going to be. I was blessed to have a decent amount of natural cognitive ability to get me over the hump. Beyond grades and girls I can’t think of any other potential stressors for high school. I mean some people worried about being popular and all that stuff. For me it just kind of took care of itself it didn’t really bring stress to me. The thing I cared the most about was sports and yes it had its disappointments, but I wouldn’t count them as stressors. I lost games, I made bad plays and I didn’t get all the recognition I thought I deserved sometimes, but the thing about sports is; you feel like you control all of that by continuing to work. I think most athletes apply that to numerous aspects of their life and its limits the stresses because they feel like the solution to most of those stressful situations is, just work harder.

As college came it had its own unique set of hardships and “stresses”. The intensity of all the things I mentioned just multiplied. Even with that being so I still don’t think I was particularly stressed during undergrad. The only two things that stressed me were not getting enough playing time and a trifflin ass girlfriend. Beyond that I did enough to stay on pace for graduation, on the academic end, and tried to take advantage of my college years on the social end. I mean there was more drama in college and I definitely cared enough about both football and my relationship to potentially be stressed about it, but like I said before, I felt like I was somewhat in control of those situations and had the ability to influence the outcomes. I’m sure there were some particular instances that happened during those four years that worried me more than others, but nothing really stands out.

Post grad has been a totally different story. While not to the extreme of wanting to harm myself, there definitely have been moments that have caused me to increase my dark liquor budget. Last fall was really difficult for me, being in Alabama, ALONE, and hurt (physically and mentally) was just really hard. I think the hardest part was going through it seemingly alone. I appreciate it now. It was good to actually feel the stress and get through it alone, and come out in a good place. (One of my prouder moments, lol) Seriously though, I really haven’t had the most traumatic life thus far. I’m blessed to have both of my parent’s still living and no truly tragic events thus far. These life events have affected a great number of my peers and influenced what their version of this topic would look like. I’m sure the ones who made it through their situation are just as happy as can be, and I’m proud of all of them. I hope I continue to handle life stresses like I have so far and the trials I’ve been through so far have prepared me enough for when life’s true hardships do come.

Just a thought

30 Day Challenge Day 4. Your views on Religion.

30 Day Challenge Day -4. Your views on religion

My views on religion. I really don’t want to go in on this blog. I will say that I was raised in a Christian (Baptist) household. I will be honest; there are some specifics of Christianity that I don’t totally agree with or believe; miracles, 6 days of creation, the rapture, to name a few. I really am not in the mood to go through a history lesson or discuss the logic behind my ideas. I’m just not totally convinced of all of the specifics of the religion. One thing that I’m totally in agreement with is the MORALS Christianity teaches. I agree with the morals that the “stories” of the bible teach. Even if I was a total non believer in everything the bible said my children would be raised in the church, if for nothing else the morals & life lessons they will be taught. I don’t want this to be misconstrued as me saying I am an atheist or something. I won’t go that far. I don’t know if there is some sort of middle ground in the discussion, but if there was I would be at the 50 yard line. I don’t know how to describe what I’m trying to say w/o being too radical or controversial.  To put it simply I appreciate the role a religious background has played in my life & I’m sure it will have a continued role. I appreciate the order it brings to society as a whole. I have no problem with those religions that teach the same essential moral code. I don’t think the variations in beliefs are large enough to warrant Holy Wars & when the beliefs are that serious that is where I have a problem. That’s for a different day.

Just a thought.

The Waiting Game

Would you ever wait on somebody? I don’t mean like wait in the car 20 minutes for somebody who is late coming outside. I mean like wait for someone in a relationship sense. Wait until your paths intertwine again. Is it the most ridiculous thing in the world or the most romantic thing in the world? I know when you think of waiting for someone, you think you have to be in standstill while they live. That’s not what I mean. If the both of you are still in movement and living out your lives in a way that would otherwise be inhibited by the presence of a partner, would it be ok? I guess when I put it like that, it makes no sense. It sounds like total BS to me. But is there ever a situation where waiting is ok? Are you setting yourself up for disappointment? Are you doing the other person a disservice? Is it possible for both people to wait? I think that the only true reason you would wait is because you either think there is only one person made for you or you can’t find anyone better. I, being a firm disbeliever in both of those statements would lend me towards the idea of not being able to do it. Quite honestly, I think I would be offended if someone asked me to wait. It would be like they are putting themselves in a superior position. I feel like once you have the balls to ask someone to do that, all respect in that relationship is gone. It might be even worse when you try to do it indirectly. When you think you have enough clout to just drop in periodically with little snippets of affection to let them know your still there. Isn’t that even more disrespectful? It’s like who the hell do you think you are.   

This little outburst had no true purpose or direction, it was just late and a nigga was a little in his feelings and 140 characters was not enough.

Just a thought.

30 Day Challenge Day 3. Your views on Drugs and Alcohol.

My views on Drugs & Alcohol? I honestly don't group them together. I feel like they have two totally different dangers. I enjoy alcohol, I am deathly afraid of drugs. I honestly did not have my first drink until summer school of my freshman year in college. I've heard this was a bit of a late start. I don't think I lived a particularly sheltered life in high school; I just never really had the urge or pressure to try it. I never really looked at alcohol as a really bad thing. I mean I know it has ruined tons of lives and families and all that good stuff but I’ve personally never frowned upon the activity. I mean I've frowned upon some individuals who can't hold their liquor. I just look at it as one of those things that if you can control your urges and enjoy in moderation it is not that big of a deal. I don't really have a strong opinion about alcohol as I'm sure you can tell. Drugs on the other hand, I just don't know how people get involved in them. I'm terrified of them. I will be honest, I'm not totally innocent here. I dabbled with weed once after the spring game my junior year. My friends who know the story understand why I won't do it again, lol. Seriously though I'm really terrified of the so called "addictive drugs". Like I just feel like if I tried it once I would be hooked for life. Like I won't even as much as smoke a cigarette because of the fear of being hooked forever. I don't think I necessarily have an addictive personality, it's just scary to think that something could have that much of a strangle hold over you. (Besides a woman)

30 Day Challenge, Day-2. Where would you like to be 10 years from now?

Man 10 years from now seems so far away but yet so close. You think about it like it’s such a long time but I remember High school graduation like it was yesterday, and that was a whole 5 years ago. But as far as where I would like to be that’s a hard question. I have my own personal goals as far as achievements go but there is a whole other side to it. I think the most important place I want to be in 10 years is happy. I don’t really care what brings me that happiness. I don’t care if it’s success, if it’s a woman, if it’s children, whatever it is, I just hope I can embrace it. That is really where I wanna be in ten years. A place where I’m wise enough to accept and embrace good things into my life and reject other things. Happiness, among other things is my goal for the next decade.                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                    

30 Day Challenge -Day 1. "Your Current relationship, if single discuss how single life is."

 I’m Single, and I’m cool with it. (Lemme say that 3 more times so I believe it, lol.) In all seriousness though, this single thing is not half bad. Like I mean really being single. Not that “I’m still kinda getting over my ex” kinda single. Not that “I have to watch what I say/do because I don’t wanna hurt anybodies feelings” kinda single. I mean REALLY single. Like you could tweet about a chick leaving her underwear at your house kinda single. I had been deprived of this kind of single for so long. That breaking up knowing your gonna make up isn’t really being single. This kinda single is the kinda single where you can’t blame anybody for being a distraction, for deterring you from your dreams, for ruining your day, this kinda single is awesome. But back to the question at hand, I enjoy the single life. I think I have used it as a time to grow. So far so good on my new year’s resolution to not have a girlfriend in 2011. I might extend that resolution into 2012. It has been good for me. I know that broke some hearts lol, but use this time to get your shit together and we can reconvene in 2013.

30 day Challenge

Gonna try to do this, not good at keeping up with stuff like this but I will try.